Quote:
Originally Posted by granite1
i have T tomorrow and i haven't had the greatest few weeks a few melt downd and problems and an episode of SI.i know i will not talk about thisand i havnt written her any letters or emails at all in fact she has only come to my mind a few times when reading here and once when i was wishing i could go sit in her office and feel safe.i believe this was just before the SI episode.i just dont know what i want in going back i feel like a child being called to principles office or being sent to my room.i so want to talk to her to be like some others here that just can go and work things out.sorry if i am whining.i just so feel stuck in just about everything .i know i am going to go tomorrow and T will ask how are things or some generic opening question and if i am in a talkitive mood ill say i'm ok or if not i will shrug.and that will be it.god i wish my T had some magic so i could know what she wants from me i am just so lost i have been going to T for about 15 months now and she really still has no idea about what has gone om in my life.i want to tell her so bad it is driving me crazy but i just cant do it no matter what i just cant open my mouthh.i just hate it i get so angry at me  |
In your mind's eye, if you could imagine the perfect session with your therapist what would it look like? What would it sound like?
If you can
imagine it, then you
can make it happen. Maybe not now, but just imagine it.
Perhaps share your perfect vision of your visit with her. I think that would be a nice easy thing to talk about.
If you can't imagine it, talk about this with your therapist. She make help you bring it into sight.
I agree, you've got to get past this block you have and sometimes visualizing freedom from the block can be an importnat first step.
Also, remember, you don't have to talk about big stuff all the time. Not at all. Sometimes I start a session with "you'll never guess what my cat did this week" and you know what? It invariably dissipates the charge in the room and leads to something that i needed to talk about. Without fail. There is no force, there is no road block, just a simple statement about a
minutiae in my life.
I think most t's just want us to talk - about anything. It's all insight for them into the way we think. It gives them the tools to help us better.
It also helps to loosen the "hey - why you're a basic total stranger, but here are my deepest thoughts" kind of construct that exists in the therapeutic space.
Relax, use visualization of positive session, and rest assured that there will be no avalanche of feeling.
Steady as she goes on this road.
