I think it's good for people to see that therapy anxiety happens, even with people who have been seeing their T for a relatively long time. I know that doesn't help YOU, tree, but thank you for sharing your experience here.

I have had that feeling, too, of it being so long since I saw T (sometimes it just FEELS like long, even if it was a normal week) and there is a lot of pressure there to make the "reunion" be perfect. I know that feeling, really well.

I think my own worries about needing to have a "good" session with T this last week played a role in the panic attack I had in her office. Too many days of waiting, too many hours of thinking about how I wanted it to go and how I didn't want it to go. Just too much.