To warn ya this might be triggering. Im a little pist right now.
i appologize for the swearing.

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NO ONE IN MY FAMILY CAN SEE THAT THERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN GET HEALTHY. I HAVE AN APPT IT WAS EITHER THE 8TH OR THE 20 WHICH I GOT BOTH. MY GRANDMA WANT ME TO CANCEL CAUSE SHE SAID I WILL BE FIRED IF I GO DURING WORK. WELL I TALKED TO MY BOSS SHE SAID IT WILL BE ALLRIGHT. SHE SAID HER BOSS WILL FIRE ME.

I GUESS I WILL STOP TAKING MY MEDS CANCELL ALL MY APPT CAUSE OBVIOUSLY MY JOB IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN MY HEALTH. OBVIOUSLY I DONT NEED MY BIPOLAR MEDS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. I GUESS I CAN SHAKE IT OFF SHE IMPLIES.

MAYBE I WILL SI. DONT WORRY IM NOT THINKING ABOUT THE BIG S. SO THIS IS BY NO WAY A SUICIDE NOTE. THIS IS BASICALLY A VENTING NOTE.

IM GOING TO MY THERAPIST FOR MY EATING DISORDER AND BIPOLAR. WHICH TO HER I CAN SWITCH OFF I GUESS. I WANT TO GO BUT I GUESS I CANT. I GUESS SHE KNOWS MORE ABOUT MY WORK THAN ME. SHE MUST KNOW THAT I WILL BE FIRED FOR THIS. SHE MUST BE PSYCHIC. SHE MUST HAVE TALKED TO MY BOSS AND THEY TOLD HER THAT I WILL BE FIRED FOR ONE MORE DOC APPT. THE LAST DOC APPT THAT I HAD AT WORK WAS IN SEPT. I GUESS SHE KNOWS I WILL BE FIRED. MAYBE I SHOULD QUIT SCHOOL AND MY MEDS AND MY THERAPY APPT AND PSYCH APPT TO JUST WORK. WORK WORK WORK. MAYBE IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH TO GO TO SCHOOL. MAYBE I SHOULDNT OWN A CAR. MAYBE I SHOULD NOT EVEN BE GOING. CAUSE OF COURSE BIPOLAR IS A DISORDER U CAN SWITCH OFF AT ANY TIME TO HER.

I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND I CANT. BUT I GUESS I CAN. SO THEN HERE IS MY DIAGNOSIS TO HER.

I AM A ATTENTION SEEKING LITTLE PEICE OF %#@&#! THAT WANTS TO SPEND MONEY AND GET INTO CAR ACCIDENTS AND RUN AROUND WITH GUYS I DONT KNOW AND BREAK THE LAWS, AND STAY UP ALL NIGHT AND WORK VERY FAST AND TALK FAST FOR ATTENTION. I GUESS ALL I WANT IS ATTENTION. THATS WHAT SHE IMPLYS.

SO HERE IT IS. I WANT ATTENTION. THATS MY DIAGNOSIS. DONT GIVE ME ATTENTION. THATS THE CURE I GUESS. SO HERE NO ATTENTION. THATS MY MEDICATION. NO ATTENION AND YELLING TILL IM BACK INTO THE PITS WERE I WONT HAFT TO GET ATTENTION.

I HATE THIS PLACE.