Thanks bebop ... you've supported me through all of these baby steps for over 2 years ... finally have that appointment that was recommended to me that long ago. I almost had a panic attack just telling the primary care doctor that I'd like to have a mental evaluation for ptsd. When he asked me why I thought I needed that, I couldn't say a thing, not one thing. Finally, he suggested "your wife and others" ... yes. The whole time I was thinking just "let me outa here."