Note: you just said you were healthy. Is that not something worth living for? There are so many people out there suffering, they would love to just be healthy.

There is a purpose for you to keep going and move forward. I'm not sure what it is that you are battling with, but whatever it is - there is a way through it all. You could really benefit from seeing a T and being able to share some of your burden with someone. You don't need to carry the load alone. Let someone else help you disect it and work through it.
I'm a PM away, or feel free to post here. Talking is painful, but it helps us analyse our thoughts.

(((LFMN)))