((((sj)))))) please take care of yourself... you don't need to cut yourself to feel better I hope! You know you are triggered at this time of year... now that you have made that connection firmly...

try to be gentle with yourself and pamper yourself because you deserve that .. you deserve all the good stuff you can do for yourself... don't let others continue to hurt you by your own devices... but be strong... as you can be.. and tell them NO you won't let them hurt you any more!!!! (((((hugs)))))

Now, what things do you like.. to do or eat...? I saw a really fat mockingbird in my yard today.. that was good to see. I had a food treat the first time in a long time since I'd had it... (last week) mmmm it was so good!