I have an appt with my T tomorrow and I am really stressed out about it. I have been building up to a point of disclosing some details about my abuse, so I'm sure this is why, but I can't get past this. This is the FIRST time I've ever been in tears over something like this. . .I have been crying off and on all day long. . .whenever I think about having to go. He has never scared me, respects my boundaries. . .is basically a good guy. But he sees me. . .and I mean, he "SEES" me.

I have been having this repetitive dream, over and over. . .about seeing him, and trying desperately to tell him, to force the words out of my mouth, but I can't. I can't do it, and I try to bolt. He is talking to me, but I can't hear him and I run. I am running trying to find my way out of the facility, and finally end up behind the water fountain trembling.

I am so upset over this. . .has anyone else experienced anything like this before in therapy?