It is such hard work. I was in such a spin all day today of bad anxiety, restlessness and despair, crying a lot. I kept thinking that I should try to sit, breathe, meditate, play soothing music, something. It was hard to interrupt the spin I was in. I finally took a xanax, the easy way out, but it helped me settle down a bit. I know I'm whipping myself up to a frenzy, but I can't even detect the thoughts that cause it. They're so lightning fast or just under the radar.