Ok maybe you guys can help me with this, i don't need lectures or anything on what to do and how not to use.,
I am having a hard time with my mom's death (and i know i don't need a tragedy to go use) but i have plenty of years and knowledge under my belt and very rarely to i get the urge...even when i am severly down.

What helps is to make a list of reasons not to use, and if everyone could add a little something that would be wonderful,
right now i am to stubburn to put anything down becase my mind is already made up...even though if i go back out i know i will kill myself becasue i have been through it too many times and not goin through it again...but my brain has turned off any logic, except for this cry of help.

So if anyone could help with that so i can print it out and look at it and put it up everywhere thanks (here comes the waterworks)