For those of us who struggle with depression, negative folks are termites infesting our leaking boat.

Go for it, Tymewilltell11! You still have something you love. You may have benefits you can use. You may need help taking advantage of what you've earned, and that's where a veterans' service organization may come in handy.

I have only my own opinion to offer and do not know the whole of what you're facing. Find some positive people, turn off (or at least down) the negative voices, and go adventuring!