I'm sick of always crying. I'm sick of feeling like this all the time. My mom suffers, she cries a lot now, she cant pay the bills, she makes 'too much' to get on food stamps or anything. She says she cant provide for us. I feel like, I should have never been born. She and my sister would have such a good life without me. They could get a two bedroom house, and wouldn't have to worry about paying for all my doctor visits and stuff. I went to the doctor today to adress my sinus problem (I havent been able to breathe out of my nose since like september) and what does he do? He gives me the same **** i've been taking that doesn't help. So, i'm depressed about that too. I'm tired of suffering, i'm angry at myself for living, and I don't want to call a suicide helpline or anything. I cant talk to anyone, I can't do anything to calm myself down. I just want to fall asleep and die. Nothing will ever get better. Nothing...