Perhaps this isn't the right situation for this. But if you're like me, when you want to lay down and die you also feel like killing yourself just a bit. I'll give you this link and you can read it whenever you want to, at your leisure.

http://www.ryanpatrickhalligan.org/d...r_Decision.pdf

I've been there. Where everything loses it's color and beauty, and it seems like if I'm just going to suffer forever, why bother?It'll never get better no matter what I do, so why try?

I'm not going to start talking about how life is worth living, find your purpose, etc. But I am going to say this.

Your mom and your sister love you. And if you were dead, they'd miss you. You may not think they will, but I know your mom will at the very least. You don't carry something around for 9 months, give birth to it, then raise it without caring about it at least a little.

Your friends would miss you. Your PC friends, and even those on here who don't know you so well, would miss you.

Live for the people around you. When you are in a place where it's a possibility, seek professional help. Medication can go a long way in helping to kill the depression.

You're strong. You can get through this. The sun will rise, just keep looking for it.