Thanks for the advice everyone greatly appreciate it!

It's funny cause, like today when I wake up, I feel totally fine/great. And I like this positive feeling to continue as long as possible.

But suddenly sometimes I will feel agitated and angsty, and self-hate, and it suddenly goes away again, and I feel like I don't really care. Hahaha maybe I guess thats why I didn't really understand if it was really depression or not, cause I don't feel particularly sad/suicidal, just mood swinging alot.

Well, I guess I still have alot fo go in understanding myself I guess... I guess I'm someone who believes that only you can yourself..

Anyway, thanks once again, and have a great day everyone