Does anyone have anything I can throw? Lol

Seriously, I am so confused. I posted earlier - the T thinks I have separation anxiety issues.

Ok.

I think that a whole lot of stuff happened to me in 2 years that was a CRISIS.

Doc John or Ben, if you are out there...

You know the Holmes and Rahe index of stress - I was over 500 points in 3 months during the court thing. in other words, I should I have dropped on the spot. But I didn't. Because I am no a wimp.

No. I dropped the DAY OF THE COURT THING. I unraveling like a 5 year old. I had some sort of delayed stress reaction. Ok.

But One year later and I am still STUCK. I don't get it.

I can tell you, where I live makes me unhappy. I keep wanted to go back home and I know I can't.

Before court, no such worries.

Before V, no worries. No worries about anything. I was moving into an apartment with a friend before that slime ball came along.

Everything unraveled over a series of 9 months. Very very very high stress. I mean things we cannot control-this was legal stuff that scared me to death, not to mention him. I was afraid of him.

So what am I supposed to do now??

I am just sort of "waking up" so to speak and immediately want to do SOMETHING. But that means moving, or working...I just have no idea. I got so off track with what happened and it was not my fault. I get that. But I am sick of being a lump.