Yea there are some struggles.. Thats nothing new to me But I call them challenges.

To me when I think of the word struggles I see someone just barely hanging on, ready to collapse any second.

Whereas when I think of the word challenges I see that there is ALWAYS a key somewhere to fit in the door and that key can be quite elusive.

It is up to the searcher as to how hard and long they choose to look for that key and decide after they find it if they are going to use it.

I know the challenge behind the door and have found the key and plans are all set to use that key.

The problem is that I pretty much know what to expect as to the after effects of using that key. the solid ground that I am standing on most likely will get very rocky and unstable while the solutions fall into place and quite possibly for a bit after.

I know that I am stronger than I have ever been before so strength is in my favor but that doesn't untie the knots keeping me just barely away from unlocking the door.

I have a feeling that I am going to just have to close my eyes, and barrel on through that door and hope the key goes into the lock smoothly so that I don't crash/slam against a solid door.

My therapsit brought up the challenge topic this afternoon (well yesterday seeing its after nidnight) but anyway I couldnt say a word, the static in my head got louder and I froze. I haven't had a brain freeze with this therapist in ages.

I knew there was a possibility of my freezing up so a week or two ago I wrote a note finally disclosing the key and the pland on how to use it. That way if I froze she knew the key and plans.

So she followed through and took the lead by bringing up the challenge, I froze and she tried and I grew ice cycles.

The winner of Round One - Jack frost.

We'll get there... I just need to find the rightsized microwave.