i'm doing terribly
a little background information real quick; my dad is a hardcore alcoholic who gets abusive. well actually he's abusive anyway just a lot more under the influence. it got to the point where i thought he was actually going to kill me and himself so he had to be detained and put under suicide watch at a hospital, of course no one told the officials that he wanted to kill me pretty much. well he sobered up detoxed and all that good stuff. my mom brought him home without telling me, i had a panic attack and my grand parents tried to guilt trip me into patching things up with him. i packed a bag in 3 minutes flat and am staying at my aunts place for a few days.
not doing well at all right now 
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I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I wanna find something ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong?
he who does not feel me is not real to me
Therefore he doesn't exist
So poof...vamoose you sob
What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate,
can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i can really use a wish right now.
i'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
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