Sweetlove: For me it is so hard to call because I don't want to look weak~I also don't want to interrupt her family time.

She told me tonight that if it wasn't okay for me to call her when I having a really, really hard time, she would have told me. She said that I should ask myself this question:"Why do I not believe what people tell me? Why do I just assume they won't follow through?"

She is right. I don't expect people to follow through because most of the times in my life they haven't! She said that I need to work on that part of me that does not trust anyone!