Listening to music and the strangest thing happened. I felt something. It was only for a fleeting moment but I felt it. I felt alive. Had a few other weaker moments after but not as intense. I want to feel that again. I want to feel alive and not numb. Not sure what it was exactly but I felt it. It seemed like some distant memory or an idea not sure but it was there if only a millisecond I felt it. Once I realized it was there it was gone. I don't remember what the thought or memory was but I want to feel it again. I hate this nothingness inside my soul. This emptiness surrounds me. I am engulfed in darkness and can't find my way out. But today I saw a glimmer of light. It was a tease. Why wont it come back? Where did it go? Why can't I feel?