btw i was confronted tonight with an old sinister demon hubby got looped snorting a lortab & decided he wanted to call the crack man. the pill made him very mean & say cruel things & made him want crack which i havent done since june Praise the Lord! He ended up leaving & admitting he didnt want the marriage anymore either He demanded money & i was so afraid i gave him what i had just so he would leave other than what i had put bak 4 bills i just so happened to go up in my purse to count the bill $ (habit) & $150 was gone goodness knows ive struggled with drugs but ive never felt so violated as ive tried my best with Gods strength to stay straight i called him & asked him & he said he didnt take it well i got to thinkin when i was on the treadmill he went upstairs & then couldnt find him i found him out on the deck talkin to the dope man so i now know he did take the $ cuz he does not get paid til tomorrow & he didnt have any money & then all of a sudden he did oh well its all overwith & i dont have to worry about the chaos anymore God worked it out Hes been so great & awesome to me thru all my bad choices Jesus forgives us & He wants us to also just believing in Him for a peaceful calm life & to help me take my meds the way im sposed to