Wow, this one is complicated I think. When I first read your post, I didn't realize that you had already posted that message to your friends. But since you have already done that, don't question it because you can't undo it now It is not up to us to judge you or others for how they are reaching out. I know that you are trying to be heard.

Having said that, I think you did a great job at articulating yourself and explaining how you feel. But I am also hoping that you haven't set yourself up. Ideally, yes, your friends will read this and respond the way you want them too. But that doesn't mean that will happen, for a variety of reasons that are not your fault.

Lots of people are uncomfortable with any discussions of this kind regarding intense emotions. Even people who care do not know how to respond, especially when so much is said. They may have issues themselves that they are struggling with, so who knows. I am not forgiving your friends for not giving you what you need or want, I am just saying that it is complicated. And there are all kinds of friends, and different levels of friendships. Some kind just are not able to "go there" just as some family members cannot meet specific needs. It doesn't mean they are all bad.

One thing that I have noticed in my life, is that I keep expecting everyone to respond the way that I would, to say the things that I would, to feel the way that I do, and it's just not going to happen!

So try not to put all of your eggs in this basket, or feel like you are wrong to have done this if nothing good comes of it for you. You have expressed how you feel, and that is not wrong. But you have also made yourself vulnerable by saying so much.

As I said, I think this is a hard one and I hope I have not been too wishy washy about it. I just don't want you to feel bad about something you have already done, yet I don't want you to be discouraged either.