today marks the tenth month i have stopped doing drugs and i ask myself this question 'why?'. why did i ever stop in the first place i honestly can't remember why i ever quit what reason or reasons i did or where i even got the motivation to stop i can't think of any reasons not to go back i don't have to stay clean for a job nobody around me gives a crap and most just encourage it it all just seems pointless to stay clean for no reason at all .