LFMN - it sounds like you and your T are not a good fit - can you shop around for another one?

Have you had blood tests done to rule out that your feeling 'unhealthy' is not a medical thing?

Depression will make you feel tired and sick at times. Anti-depressants and therapy can help you out of this hole.

Please remain positive and know you are not alone in this. It can be overcome. Many of us can tell you about times where we felt we'd reached the bottom of the barrel, but managed to push through it. We care for you.