I'm going to see her with my Dad the next time, while all other times have been with a social worker who doesn't see the real side of me. Hopefully he'll help me set her straight.

As for meds, I dunno. If things are good and there isn't much drama going on to trigger me and make me fall into such a depressive episode like this I do pretty well. My outlook on life doesn't change too much, but it seems less overbearing and I don't get the horrible feeling that it's going to be forever. If there's no emotional trigger from friends or family I always have hope, and always have time to laugh. They told me meds were to be taken everyday even if I was feeling okay, but I do feel okay (emotionally at least, not physically) most of the time.. So I don't know what they would do for me. Emotional pain from friends and relatives would still hurt just as bad, and I don't think they would boost any motivation to go to school, since, even when feeling fantastic I don't want to go.