Jimmy, i'm sorry for your pain right now. have you talked to a therapist? i think it would help if you made an appointment with a T and talk out your feelings towards her. it sounds as though she wants to end the relationship and you can't change that. the only thing that you can change is yourself and how you perceive things and how you respond. right now you need to take care of yourself. let her do whatever it is she wants to do. just take care of you. xoxoxo pat