"There was only one bright side, last night, at an unreasonable time (12am) I went had a shower, did my hair, made myself look nice and for a few hours, felt amazing, confident, beautiful. I don't know why I did it, no one is going to see me at 12am and I went to bed soon after, but it was nice."

This was copy-paste from one of your posts..and this is also a good step for you to continue to take. Do this kind of thing offten, put out of your mind what others think of you or say about or to you.