I really stress over the part where you feel 'good' for awhile and then the setback/flareup of the depression returns, it hurts just as much no matter how many times it happens for me.

It is like the Borg resistance is futile, you will be assimilated- not a big Star Trek fan but I think it is close to how I feel, something else has taken over my brain, and blocked the parts of me that used to care.

sorry you are feeling the depression again
G1