Yea I know this wont last for ever. Lately though I have only had OK days. Even on good days there is still this weight on me. This uncomfortable feeling. I haven't felt really alive since. 06. Last night I felt this amazing feeling. It was like being in the middle of a snow storm and for a split second it was spring only to return to the storm. Well that's just an analogy but I think You get my meaning. I do try to avoid dwelling on the past because it only makes Things worse. Well anyway thanks for the kind words as always. You are a very wise woman and I hope you are having a better day than yesterday.