TimeO I'm sorry people get frustrated and yell at you. Most people depend on a consistancy of daily life that us'ns just plain can not accomplish. It makes it hard all around.
Have these people any interest in learning more about depression? Maybe if they had more information on how hard it is for you to function at the level of their expectations they could stop blaming you for being who you are.
When I was too depressed to move as a young person, my Mom made lists of chores for me to do, thinking all I needed was work....... like washing all the windows in the house.......
She still thinks it's a matter of will. She's a control freak who does very little self refection. I moved to the other side of the country to find peace......
TimeO, we all have many facets, good, bad and ugly inside us.
Sometimes we act out and make a mess. For me the important thing is to notice when I alm down and try to clean up after my self as best I can, then forgive myself, learn my lesson, and move on. Beating myself up with my mistakes doesn't get me anywhere I want to go.
Try being as kind to yourself as you are to others here. You deserve your kindness too. LOL