Well, I got my books, and saved some money by shopping online, and they should be here by the end of the week. So that is good, after my break down last night, I am doing much better then I had expected. I'm actually excited for school now, I'm still a bit scared by the sher size of campus. and I'll have to take the bus system to get up to north campus. But I'm gettign better. and in 5 months I will be with my sister, and will have a job by then. I know it. I will continue to put out applications and do all the things that I need to do. But things just have to improve. I still haven't cut yet. so I"m good there. becuase my excuse is I dont' have the money to even start cutting and taking care of those cuts. So that is a good thing. I think I still have one thing to get for my class but it's like less than $20. so I'm doing much better. Now it's time to find my House DVD's and relax every night with them. And I need to go to the library. And then things will improve. THey just have too.