Dear, whatever you decide to do, you need to feel that your therapist is working with you. This seems to be missing here. As long as this is not working, then you will have a hard time building a safe, firm ground to make the wise changes Venus suggests, or making the efforsts that Mountain lion urges, though I think those are also something that might help for a time.

Meds might help weaken your reactions nough to help you take in and start working with the therapist, but I agree that in the end, you will need to move on past that. I myself need to take them regularly but my problems are not yours. If you can trust your dad, then tell him that you need to find someone who is better working with adolescents with depression and anxiety. You need someone who will listen to you, because your life and your pain is not the same as everyone else's and it's not going to be found in a book. Hugggs, dear. There is more to life out there. Truly.