I have another group of friends...my coursemates.. but once they found out about my eating disorder and cutting they stopped talking to me completely. I am quite well known for my out there drinking with the boys attitude.. and they didnt like that either. So I feigned recovery and now we r friends, but I wont trust them with anything. I saw a counsellor for a while at uni. She kept ignoring my issues on depression and food and all she said was you have the willpower to change that. Just tsop doing it. I dont have the willpower.. So I stopped seeing her. Ihave no support group. I have no one to talk to. I tried telling Vie that Iwas suicidal but he.. he just said "but you know you wont talk about your problems to anyone. We were just helping you get out of your bad reputation(incident that happened a month ago) and you say we didnt bother to ask you why you were acting out?" I just said sorry its my fault. At this moment he is the only one I can talk to and even then I can never tell him about my demons. Im losing it. and there's no one I can go to..