LOL how true and thats when I usuallly hang on tighter.

Not as much shocking as it is irritating. Im not one to stand still for very long. Ive learned if I do that I end up in the wallow in self pitty don't get back up for its not worth it mode. and right now thats not someplace I want or need to be.

There is a saying among the survivors that went public when I did and those that I have been in contact with over the past years and that is -

Against my will my abusers made me a victim.

By choice I made me a survivor.

I know that I will survive no matter what challenges that are locked behind closed door. And I have no doubt that it will lead to more or new details of the memories that I have forgotten.

That is why I have this brain freeze. Ive been through memory cycles before so even though I don't know the content yet, I know what to expect of the process of remembering and I know what to expect for after effects of the remembering.

Back when I first went through a memory cycle I was afraid of the content because I had no experience of going through the process. Well Now I have the experience of both and that makes for a massive brain freeze every time I reach this point.

NAAH for some maybe. I know removing bandaids hurt, I prefer the quick grab and go then the slow but drawn out stretch and pull of the adhesive backing.