I feel embarrassed to bring up things I have dealt with before in therapy and thought I was over. I get the feeling that we talked about this, worked on this--sometimes extensively--and were done with this and I should be healed on this now. But then here it is again, and I am embarrassed to show T how inadequately I have healed. I'm not healed on this after all!! I know that is silly, but it can embarrass me. It usually comes up as a surprise (hey, that still hurts!). When I can bring it up and we work on it more, that helps. But sometimes it does shut me down. I hope T doesn't get bored by working on the same stuff. But it is my therapy and T told me once that I didn't have to "perform" when I come there (it's not my job to entertain him), so if he gets the same old same old sometimes, well so it goes.

I have other things I don't bring up with T not necessarily because they are too embarrassing but because they are too painful and I'm not ready to deal with them yet. Ahhh, so many reasons to not bring things up....