I suffered from childhood and adult abuse. I'd be more specific but I can't open up about it yet. I never feel "safe" anywhere, or have the feeling of "home". No matter where I am, I am hypervigilant and am constantly tense. I have been dealing with these feelings mostly on my own.

I've tried to at least construct a place of safety in my bedroom, as devoid of electronics or any triggers as possible, yet I still can never let my guard down. It has varied in severity over the course of my life, but it's worse when I'm alone lately. It doesn't make a lot of sense. Does anyone here have any insights?

Thanks.