Thanks for the feedback and support....

Group was pretty awful for me tonight. *sigh*

The new members didn't join yet, so it was just our normal group....but certain topics were being addressed, and I just couldn't relate....and it really helped me to feel so distant and alone. At the end of the session, I told the group that I felt like I was on an island by myself because I wasn't able to relate to what they were all talking about.

Even though I have learned so much in this group and care for the group members, it makes me wonder if this is really the right kind of group for me...and that it might be better for me to be in a group with people who are struggling with similar issues as me.

I just think it's hard for them to understand my world....and my T said something similar to me before...and suggested that me sharing more would help them understand. But they are not there to learn about my world and try to understand it. They are dealing with their own issues, and being in a room of people who can relate and give feedback is what they need....not to spend time being taught how to understand my screwed-up world - especially when it would not be a simple task.

I don't know. I'm feeling a bit discouraged at the moment and very down about group right now...

Add to that, there was a dialogue between the members - and 3 of us were very much involved in it (including me)....and T gave some rewarding feedback to the other two members but didn't say boo to me. I understand he was commenting on their progress and that he feels that I am much further ahead with "the process" part of things....but it still didn't feel good to be excluded.