I had an insight! I know I have posteritis, the need to keep posting and posting about my session--maybe sessionitis? Anyway, the other times she held my hand it was the "child" part of me that wanted the connection. It was acceptable for me to do something so weird and juvenile, in my opinion, because it was "for the child". But today, my eyes were open and I was the adult rainbow wanting her to hold my hand so I could feel the connection. Oh, the "Rainbow Connection". lol. Isn't that a Sesame Street movie?! AND IT WAS OKAY! My T didn't have a problem with it or think it was weird. Neither did I. So, I don't have to be a baby or child with my T in order to hold her hand and feel the connection. I can be ME! I know it's still a weird concept to hold her hand but my T said everyone needs touching in their lives. The child part likes it too but today it was the adult who needed to be connected on an adult level with T.