I can only relate in the instance that a very good friend of mine had a brother very recently who had been having issues. He had said that he was suicidal and never had any serious attempts in fact he said this many times. So when he told his ex-wife again she ignored it. ((((TRIGGER)))) So when my very good friend his sister had not heard from him the very next day after this last threat of his intentions they went looking for him and filed a police report. Well they found him before the police did. He carried thru with this last attempt. I sat there stunned...Sick just reeling in my own whirling thoughts of my friend that was relaying me this awful tragedy of what was happening to this dear friend of ours! It scares me too! The awful emptiness. I have just went inside big time...I understand. Today my 16 year old dog at a little past 9am was laid to rest....It was peaceful for him but heart breaking for us. Another reason to see life leave another person in my family I luv so dearly (it was the humane thing to do) however to hold him and not want to let go neither I nor my husband and howl over the loss even as I type this.......I understand that nothing seems sure in this world, nor is it....However all we can do is love our best to what we have and hope the same in return right? I am sorry that your going thru these heart wrenching emotions....I think I understand? if safe?
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the past is my future. the pain is my emotion that is my prison. what I feel is as confusing as to why I feel it?
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