When you're that sad it's so easy to fall into such a pit of despair that you feel nothing matters, and that you don't matter.

But you do. Your friends may not know what to say or do to help you. But I would imagine if they are real friends that they do care - they just don't know how to express it or help you.

I'm sorry you feel so down and despondent. You're welcome to cry all you want. But don't let depression and tears shut you down from the world outside. Reach out if you can. I bet you'd be surprised about how many actually do care.