I'm sorry that you're feel broken at this time . Life is so difficult for us with depression and it feels like many in your life don't care. It's not that, but rather they have no idea what you are going through and how painful it is. I am still working through the process of not BLAMING my family for not understanding my depression and anxiety. How could they really, fullly understand when they are not ME??
Yes you can definitely cry. I cry often! But if you were OK and then there was a change, maybe you can talk to your pdoc or T if you have one about this change?

Z