I'm not too keen on the group thing, but I suppose if the other kids there have more obvious social anxiety I don't have to worry about talking to anyone or making friends. I'm going in for an interview thing tomorrow with my Dad.

I've never really done this stuff before. I used to have the counselors children's aid society provided try and talk to me, but this was all when I was little and wasn't ready or aware that anything that happened could have a prolonged effect. I was dismissed and ignored after that, while they focused on my brother, until my attendance started getting serious. But all in all they closed their case while my attendance was only fixed temporarily with no amount of therapy or anything. Since then I've had to set things up by myself. My Dad has done therapy and he never liked it, so he's not so much for it as would be helpful. My social worker is for it, but I still feel lost, even when talking to her about what I should do.

Basically though this group thing was the alternative to medication. It was either go to a program for group and individual counseling there, or go on meds and, I think, continue with their individual therapy.

I feel like I had some expectation of how it was going to be, how it was going to work. I don't know what it was that I expected but by the whole system, as of right now, I feel let down.