I havent yet to learn how to quote a part of a tread yet but I would if I could

"Should not have started this thread"

I'm sorry you are thinking that way, I know I started one I would like to take back but it kinda helped going back and reading it later and thinking opps - silly me, I was a bit over the wall. I believe no one should be sorry for starting any thread. At the time you start it you needed it and that is why we all here (I think so anyway).

As for the question, I think we each have to learn what "our normal" is. I fought hard for people to accept my normal. I feel the best (mood, physical..etc) when I'm slighty hypomanic. (hypomanic description set by all my pdoc's thus me saying its my normal) Spent years expressing to my doctors that is where I feel the best. Isnt this what its all about "feeling good about yourself and functioning well in everyday life". I do run a risk with my swings going a bit above more than the normal hypomanic stage but it's a risk my family and I are willing to take so that Im not walking around "numb from drugs" every day. Start a mood graft and find the middle most part where "YOU" feel the most normal. Be it slilght above or below the "medical description of normal" and that will be your normal then work hard to keep there. Just a suggestion.