I do a little bit of both. I rely on my dad a lot to take me shopping and to the mall and stuff like that. I do this because county transportation will only take me to my appointments. If I did live in an area where public transportation was available to me, I would still depend on my dad because the idea of me doing things on my own scares the living hell out of me and I freeze emotionally and physically at the thought of it. I guess you could say it's all part of my illness. I don't like being this way, but the intense fear that I feel prevents me from doing things on my own.