I agree with the 'vomiting'. For me, it feels like you are a clay pot that is 'in tact'. Then someone comes along and pokes holes all in it. The contents that were in that pot come seeping out through every hole. If the hole is large enough, it gushing through that one.

There are too many holes to plug up! At this point, I cannot keep it all in. It is coming out everywhere and I cannot stop it. It is out of control. That is not comfortable for me, but that is where I am at in therapy.

My T says that this is where we have been trying to get. Now we can work on healing each any every one of those 'holes' and repairing them

Hope this makes sense.