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Thank you for the thoughts and caring. It's funny, but my T told me yesterday that only I can make the decision and that for awhile he had lost sight of that - always wanting to jump in and try to fix things for me.......until he realized that he couldn't.

I tried telling him how much he influences me, how much I listen to and try to do as he wants for me.....and for once he lost his temper and said, "If I have that much influence over what you do, then for G*d's sake, stay alive and don't make me grieve for you....because it will hurt me if you do this."

I was shocked by his outburst. He asked me to come in Monday and talk - today I let him know that I would be there. He wasn't sure what I was going to do considering the way I left his office.

Yes, my son needs me, but he needs his mom, not the person I have changed into the last few months. Right now my behavior is hurting him as well and he doesn't understand me - no one does lately.