I'm able too but I don't know if I will.

i'm giving myself time...things are soo stressful right now
but, I want to create emotional distance and not rely on her
so if i do go back, i want to make sure i go back with a mindset
that i don't feel this HUGE need to rely on her
but, its more of a supportive arena then anything else

AND THANKS everyone. I truly appreciate the feedback.
maybe it is worth it?

I like what was said above

I don't know your relationship with your T, but if it's meant to be, you'll be able to address this issue with her, and she'll be able to iron out any fears.

I kinda have thought that myself, if its meant to be, will be able to work through the issue and move forward. great therapeutic relationships, i would think, are the ones where the therapist may get frustrated with the client but this doesnt mean they just give up on them. i think a good therapist is probably willing to address what needs to be addressed if it is in the best interest of the client. maybe?