I am so glad she sent you an email with kind words. What did you feel when you opened that email?

I can understand the extreme hoplessness you are expressing. Sometimes just getting out of bed is all you can manage. Can I tell you something that I use sometimes when I am in that state? I use post it notes and attempt to some up with at least one thing that makes me feel good. May not be anything special to anyone but me but it is at least something. I then stick the post it note somewhere I am going to see it. most recently I had notes up that said "The rain smells good" or "Buttered toast". The sound of the fan was nice, diet pepsi is a god send, the cat purring is sweet. May not seem like much but even one small glimmer of something can be helpful. Hen when I get into a state where nothing matters, I cn see this notes stuck up somewhere and they remind me that while my life completely sucks that somehow, somewhere, something good does exist.

Can you thinnk of anything that you like, that makes you feel good, that makes you feel even a glimmer of joy? Even if it seems ridiculous to everyone but you, can you think of something?

I'm sorry you are feeling so horrible right now. Monday may seem a long way away but it is less than a week now. Hang in there and keep talking