I personally would not seek hospitalization unless I felt my life depended on it, and I definitely wouldn't enter a hospital without T's involvement, which you don't have this week.

A hospital would keep you safe, but I don't think it will help with the alone feelings. For me, being surrounded by unfamiliar things and people would make me feel more alone. I'd long for my T who knows me.

Again, I'm just saying what I would do.

I would find a way to hang on for 5 more days and then talk with your T about the hopelessness. Maybe she can recommend an intensive-type program or maybe she will recommend a hospital....but she would be supporting you in the decision. You wouldn't be alone with it.

In the meantime, what can you do to be more connected to people right now? Can you go read at a coffee shop? Go to a movie? Or keep calling friends? Keep posting here?