Dear people, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your words. I really appreciate each and every one of you and would respond individually but this laptop is crap and won't load quickly. (It hates me, I'm borrowing it because my own laptop broke)

Silly feelings are driving me bonkers. I haven't had a heartattack with people invading my personal space or being insensitive jerks or even the touchyfeely people who I just don't want anything to do with right now... that's progress, right? I'm not an angry person, but I'm a very easily startled one.

I called and left T a message telling her I felt like crap, and asking her when our appointment is next week 'cause she needs to figure things out logistically. (It's complicated due to accessibility needs for me)

I kinda knew therapy would be hard, and I even wanted to rush through therapy when I first started (oh so many years ago, although I didnt know I was this messed up then) ... alas, now I actually AM working through stuff. Which comes at a bad time since I start school again next week. ERP!

I appreciate all the advice and words of encouragement and even talking about y'all's personal experiences and whatnot. THANKS!