I let myself cry and since then I have been so depressed. I just wish I could bring back the numbness and not have to feel anymore.
I had been doing so well... I think i got scared... I was too happy, I started thinking and got sad, and then let myself cry... I never cry.
To top it all off I got some horrible news about a lady who is very dear to me.
why does this have to be so hard? Why can't i let myself stay happy... it like I know i am gonna be depressed soon enough, so i can't even let me be happy even if it is for a short time. I am just so done with this.