Right now there's only one person (my best friend, the most awesome person ever lol) that I could talk to if I needed to. A few other friends I could talk to if they knew, but they don't. I could tell them if I really needed to talk to someone, but hopefully I won't need to do that.

I can usually deal with the urges pretty well, especially if I'm really trying to stop. The problem is if something does come up like last year. Last year I found out that my dad threw me when I was a baby because I wouldnt stop crying, I ended up in a coma, vision problems now, my mom not divorcing him which made me angry at her too.....the point of this is, I have a feeling I won't have to deal with anything like that again. If other tough things come up, I think I can handle it. If not, I have a friend I can talk to now. The past year has made me totally a wreck at times but I feel stronger now. I went through all that as just a baby and I survived. Maybe I can survive anything. Like something my best friend said, I'm not just a fighter in martial arts
Kinda venting there. I'm done now.

Thanks for replying